Not hoping

I'm having a CT scan tomorrow. There is a small chance that I may not need the bone breaking surgery. If my top layer of cartilage is still intact on the talus, Dr. McGorgeous would be willing to drill up from underneath and fill it with a bone growing matrix. Sort of like getting a cavity filled. Obviously, this is a much less invasive surgery, and I would love for this to happen. But. I'm not hoping. For some reason, I haven't been able to catch a break yet with my ankle, so why would be start now? I'm not saying that in a bitter way, just honest. I'm planning for a leg breaking surgery with a long recovery. If something fun pops up in my CT scan, I'll try to post a pic!